A Sign???

I'm just sick. Seriously. I'm crying and I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I just lost my daughter. My big secret I've been keeping from you all because I didn't want to jinx it, is my Indian daughter. The agency just called and it is not good news. I could spend all our money and not be able to bring our daughter home. How can you get so attached to a picture? How can you get past this. I was calling her daughter and the first time in a year, I felt I was really gonna become a momma. She is in an orphanage that isn't doing well financially and so they may take all our money and just shut down. No child at the end of the tunnel,and that is just something we just cannot afford to do. After I got off the phone with the agency I went into the living room to look at our children's pictures on the fireplace and hers had fallen over. A sign. One heartbreaking sign.