Because I can...

Today I felt nudged, and because I promised I would fulfill His nudges before they happen, I did it.  And now I sit here full of goosebumps.  Full of tears.  Full of wondering why oh why God?  And how in the world?  And I am asking you for an IOU.  Thats right God, I'm asking you for an IOU, and a discernment on this.  I know you brought me here, and intended for me to see this.  But now?  How would it work?  I am literally in shock, and thinking that maybe this is a mistake, but I checked, and its true.  How in the world did this happen?  This CAN'T be why you brought me here.  Or is it?  Oh.My.Gosh.  I am standing in awe of the one who promises life.  Life eternal.  And I am actually speechless.  It IS the boy in the tree.  I have MET him.  I have asked about him months ago, only to no avail.  And here he is, in all his glory, waiting for a family.  Dear God, I pray for discernment.  I am in awe, and can't believe it.  As my body is riddled with trembles, and tears pour down my face, and I feel YOUR presence here, I don't want to disappoint.  But how in the world?  How in the WORLD?!! All I can say to you God is yikes...

I do love you God, even though walking with you hand in hand makes me scared.  I know you would never let me fall, and you would always take care of me, no matter what.  And I do love you for that.  I DO, but I don't think I can do this.  Is this what you intend?  Holy cripes.  I am in shock...
Boys.
Pictures.
Dreams. As for dreaming he came into the orphanage a few short weeks after this.  Is this what you intended?  Oh.My.Gosh Lord, you really know how to make someone get goosebumps...